Wednesday, January 30, 2008

i am back once again to entertain Parmes dear. even though i still find my daily rants a bit annoying, she finds it entertaining so i guess it's a good thing for her. at least i know my blog as at least a reader. i'm sure Xuan's one too. she's just too sick of hearing things about me as she will start giving me her bird face with this message saying "stop being such a critic and idiot simxuelin." yes i know, Xuan. i'll TRY but apparently it's not working. remember how i even corrected that damn actress during that movie for her English? okay that's beside the whole point.

i'm glad i'm still alive, after three days of school. Monday was just horrendous and i swear she hates our class from that point onwards. you-know-who (NOT Lord Voldemort that disgusting worm face) just started to scold all of us and all and it's a norm already. all these just simply sucks the essence of your life out of you and you will feel like a walking zombie after that. the day DIDNT fly like i expected it to as there was NO Econs but oh well. rushed off to meet my beloved kids at Suki Sushi. i just miss sitting around with them and just talk to them. at least they can make me forget about my horrible day at school. caught the movie '27 dresses' and it's funny. i'm not the lovey dovey shit person so i dont really appreciate the sweetness that she felt but i guess the right word to use is sweet? nevermind. all these shows are just trying to tell those girls out there that 'HEY IT'S OKAY IF YOUR SISTER GETS YOUR GUY BECAUSE YOU'LL GET ANOTHER ONE WITH HOTTER BLUE EYES'. that's not going to be possible, yo.

Monday was a useless day and i was so fucking tired that i reached home and didnt do a single shit. homework seems like an alien word that was cast out far far away from my mind and i just head for bed. woke up the next day feeling like shit and giddy all over but i have to get to school. it's a fucking routine isnt it? mass PE never fails to make me feel like i am cursed with a disease that i need the stupid morning sun to perk me up and walking round the track makes me feel even more giddy. it's especially so when you're having a migraine and your mind is obsessed with the FACT that your ECONOMICS HOMEWORK IS NOT DONE AND SHE'S GOING TO KILL ME. rushed it out and guess what? she didnt go through it because she came and gave us HELL. with her openly declaring her hatred for our class is bad enough. fancy hearing all those blunt words coming out from her mouth. i pity Sng that he got us as his class and that he deserve some better class that she likes. it sucks when you hear a particular teacher hates your class because of your lousy attendance. i mean we deserve to get scolded and all and she does make sense but cant she just shower us with a teeney weeney bit of CONCERN and some COMPASSION towards us?

i dont expect her to be sympathetic towards my migraine problems and i absolutely know the FACT that i'm just an IC number to the Brits marking our papers. whatever she said contained truths and i understand that she wants us to do well. however i still hope that she'll be a little nicer to my class and dont use such blunt words. it demoralises us like shit and it made our day so sour. sometimes her harsh words serves as a motivation for some to prove it to her, while some will just get so fucking demoralised that they feel like doing what she said - drop out of college. her words either break us or make us. i would dare say that i'm not the motivated shit. after what she said we just went to swallow our food as fast as we can and go for Lit class. Sng was feeling sympathetic towards our feelings and shifted CT up. it just spoils our day and it made my migraine worse. forget it.

went home after the history drama discussion and took a power nap of half an hour. totally drained me. went to get foolscap and tried to finish the newspaper articles but left with one. wanted to do the Econs essay outlines but have no energy and brain power to.

i know that wanting to go back to J1 seems stupid because it's just living hell right now but why would i want to go through her and the same thing twice? seems stupid and it's probably an act of cowardice. i dont know.

today, her tutorial was first and like last Wednesday, she was in a good mood (considered a good one). perhaps she's a morning person. there were jokes and laughter and i really hope it'll be the same for all tutorials. i need her to get me my Ace in Econs so i hope we'll not irritate each other like what she said. it's pure torture and it's damn painful.

since the day started well with her, we werent so sour after her lesson. swallowed our food and rushed for lessons still. kept wanting to sleep but i cant especially during the last lecture, Econs. she's just sitting right behind me. it gives me additional pressure not to do anything funny. getting all hanky panky in front of her = committing suicide.

i hope i am still in a piece by the end of this week. next week is just two days and one day of her. Econs test is on Monday and i'm sure i'll fail it AGAIN. failure is like my new best friend. look at my Block Tests. it's so FANTASTIC that i dont even get demoralised after i received my later part of the History paper. it's not the worst so i guess i'm immune to failing already. yes i admit my study method is wrong. memorising can get me no where. i dont even memorise. i just see what i can remember. whatever. Mrs Tan's going to come chase us for Math Holiday Assignment. I'M NOT EVEN DONE OR TOUCHED IT. -.-

i'm so tired now and i have essays and newspaper articles to complete later. dont even feel like dying after i died today. brain's malfunctioning like mad and i'm not even making sense.

sorry Parmesy. this post is not entertaining. wait for me to regain my awesome bitchy self first.

dead.